You may theorize and memorize and postulate all you want… but until you finally do, you will never truly know.
As I wrote in a post about the difference between theoretical and practical learning roughly a year ago there is a huge difference between theory and reality.
In order to master skills you have to get active! Reading and educating yourself is good but not enough at all. You have to get on your feet and start active practise!
phil
Stick with it to the end. The punch line is totally worth it.